Wow this blog is so dusty. As the new year approaches it would be a good time to add in some content.
This is from a Journal entry from March 2013:
Yesterday I went on a long walk: 2 hours. During that time I was praying and meditating -- spending time in conversation with God, examining my heart. It was a soothing and restful time, by the time I finished I did not even realize it had been two hours.
A few themes emerged during my prayers; wisdom that if I could grasp and hold on in my heart would radically change the way I think and behave. Therein comes the first lesson: Heart Knowledge.
Heart Knowledge is something imminently necessary in my life -- in all our lives really. Heart Knowledge meaning "the type of knowledge it takes to really change the way we behave". The thought came out of the realization that while I was walking, the Lord was reminding me of much wisdom. Wisdom that makes sense in my mind; wisdom that every day I manage to forget. So in my prayers, I continually asked God: Lord, I know this things in my head, I know them to be true now, but tomorrow I will forget; please imprint your wisdom in my heart.
The wisdom I was thinking about at the moment was the wisdom of the tiny pebble. The tiny pebble represents all our desires and wants. All our desires are tiny pebbles that utterly consume all our time and attention. We so willingly give up so much to hold on to our tiny pebbles. We fight so hard. We suffer much.
For tiny pebbles that are supposed to fill us with joy...
Then I remembered that God is a huge mountain of joy. And this was not hard to imagine because in my hand I held a little pebble and before me, to the east and to the west, I could see the rising mountains -- they were huge. No matter how closely I held the pebble to my eyes I could not make it look bigger than the mountains.
So I thought:
I am very foolish in letting all my attention be captured by a little pebble. So much so that I do not see the huge mountain of joy. If I had the mountain. If it would truly be engraved in my heart. If I truly had heart knowledge...
Then I would not feel so strongly about tiny pebbles.
This is from a Journal entry from March 2013:
Yesterday I went on a long walk: 2 hours. During that time I was praying and meditating -- spending time in conversation with God, examining my heart. It was a soothing and restful time, by the time I finished I did not even realize it had been two hours.
A few themes emerged during my prayers; wisdom that if I could grasp and hold on in my heart would radically change the way I think and behave. Therein comes the first lesson: Heart Knowledge.
Heart Knowledge is something imminently necessary in my life -- in all our lives really. Heart Knowledge meaning "the type of knowledge it takes to really change the way we behave". The thought came out of the realization that while I was walking, the Lord was reminding me of much wisdom. Wisdom that makes sense in my mind; wisdom that every day I manage to forget. So in my prayers, I continually asked God: Lord, I know this things in my head, I know them to be true now, but tomorrow I will forget; please imprint your wisdom in my heart.
The wisdom I was thinking about at the moment was the wisdom of the tiny pebble. The tiny pebble represents all our desires and wants. All our desires are tiny pebbles that utterly consume all our time and attention. We so willingly give up so much to hold on to our tiny pebbles. We fight so hard. We suffer much.
For tiny pebbles that are supposed to fill us with joy...
Then I remembered that God is a huge mountain of joy. And this was not hard to imagine because in my hand I held a little pebble and before me, to the east and to the west, I could see the rising mountains -- they were huge. No matter how closely I held the pebble to my eyes I could not make it look bigger than the mountains.
So I thought:
I am very foolish in letting all my attention be captured by a little pebble. So much so that I do not see the huge mountain of joy. If I had the mountain. If it would truly be engraved in my heart. If I truly had heart knowledge...
Then I would not feel so strongly about tiny pebbles.
I am glad you picked up your blog :)
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